I find myself drifting back and forth between such peace and such chaos. The peace is my trust & hope that the Lord is directing my path, forming me along the journey, using me as we go & the destination is not as important as the journey. Chaos is in my anxiety in never feeling adequate -- so many others to be compared to, so much work to be done & not enough time, energy, ability, perfection available to do it!
Do I engage it all? Do I ignore it? The tears come, I could suppress them...but that also feels shackled and lonely. I want to feel it. I want to enter into emotion.
May I walk in the light of your Presence, My Lord.
If you want to feel better about yourself, just compare yourself to me. :-p Haha, j/k. Have a fantastic day!
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