Take and receive all that I am and have.
You've given it to me; I give it all back to you.
Do what you want with me.
Just give me your love and grace and that's enough.
- St Ignatius
All. Everything.
Surrender. Sacrifice.
"Any road, Lord, at any cost."
I used to pray these prayers, these words with such fervor, such anticipation. The road, the cost, though unknown seemed exciting and enticing. An adventure!
Meaning. Purpose. Value.
Today these prayers conjure other thoughts and emotions...
Hard. Difficult. Scary!
Too much. Not enough.
Can I really do this?
My life has become more complex since I first uttered those prayers, or it at least feels more complex. Perhaps I just carry more baggage that is painful both to carry and let go of.
There are 3 of us now - me has become we. One is tiny, dependent on the other two for her every need.
Really God? All? Everything? At Any Cost?
Our promise: Hebrews 12:1-3
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.JOY
If that Joy is worth the cross to my God, what can I truly hold back? How can I hold back?
We're too far now...its all or nothing. We choose all and search for the Joy in each moment of this adventurous journey we are on...
